Friday, October 24, 2008

Bring it on again


Rummaging through the garage, I came across my old snowshoes. They are battered and scratched from those magical days in December, January and February over many years.

I cleaned them up and stacked them next to my new pair -- these hi-tech Atlas snowshoes with very aggressive campons. They're wonderful for off-trail trekking, which is my favorite thing in winter.

Looking at the snowshoes reminded me of a day a little more than two years ago when I napped on a huge boulder in the waning afternoon sun at frozen Huntington Lake.

I had snowshoed quite a distance. I began making cell phone calls and e-mailing photos of my surroundings. Then, I ate my lunch watching the clouds stream in overhead. I got sleepy from the hike and the big meal, so I dozed.

A half-hour later, a huge clunk woke me up. I thought it was some critter checking out my backpack. Turned out to be a block of ice floating down Big Creek and banging into my rock.

I sat up. To my surprise, I had a thin layer of snow all over me. Those wispy clouds had turned dark and angry. It was still snowing.

I shook off like a big dog, stepped back into my snowshoes and hauled it back up the hill. I stopped and filtered a liter of water from Big Creek and drank deeply when I got back near my vehicle. I was still shivering and laughing at myself when I picked up my son, who was snowboarding at Sierra Summit.

I can't believe how much fun I had that day. I had seen nature go from a glittering, sunny morning to a slanting snowstorm in the afternoon.

OK, maybe it's not so bad to be in the ice and cold of the high country. Maybe it will snow by Thanksgiving.

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Not quite the same, sadly


When I think about trekking areas where nobody can drive, it is such a humbling experience. It brings a clarity that I can't find in my backyard or even in a lovely meadow in Yosemite Valley.

Yet, I was surprised by something in this trip. The hike didn't work the way it usually does -- didn't vaporize my demons and instill this soul-shaped glow.

I come from Bakersfield, land of oil derricks, renegade red necks, all-night bowling alleys and fist fights on Friday nights. In those days, I went to the mountains only for the purpose of fishing and drinking beer. I mostly hooked hangovers.

Most of the people I grew up with would either laugh at you or slug you if you suggested something bigger than your own daily functions was going on out there. I am relieved to say that I haven't fit that mold in decades.

So, lynch me from the top of Father Garces at the traffic circle on Chester Avenue where the kids cruise, looking to meet each other, purchase booze and discover their own brand of nature.

But I must admit that the buzz from the glacier adventure departed rather quickly. More quickly than this nature buzz ever has. The cynicism of the workplace, the economic downturn and the election year sapped me.

I've taken two weeks off to explore other ideas. Maybe something will spark. Can't wait for Nov. 4 -- election day -- to come and go.

Or, maybe there's another day that is more important. On October 22, I will be 55. Maybe that's the day I need to come to grips with.
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